the world is gray these days...

I had some unbelievable mistakes these days, which made me confused. yes, i am confused by myself. i cant understand what i've done.
Wish you were here ...
Wish YOU were here ...
and i could rest in your warm relaxing hug...

i do not know what to do.

some weeks ago I wrote " i really want the red flash of a cigarete in darkness of midnight.. ".
some times some body sings ... " i hate you then i love you then i hate you then i love you " i think that was the great gone Pavarotti.
i hate you
i love you ...
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what would be the last expression?
i dont know.